On adoption, by 13 to 15 year old me
Dude it’s fucked it’s totally fucked I tell you. I am so never having sex I swear to god you go ahead but you watch out. I’m telling you, you don’t believe me, but I read dude, like, you should try it. There is like no birth control that works right and you’ll wind up pregnant and it will totally fuck you up. I’m going to like get sterilized or something before I have sex so I don’t have to worry about getting pregnant. I am so never having kids.
And I don’t want to hear that shit about all the shit I got and how rich we are because it’s still fucked, it’s fucked, it’s totally fucked and wait don’t bogart that joint dude pass it here but anyway listen no seriously listen my mom is -- I’m like this possession to her right? Like this doll she bought so she thinks she owns me man but I’m splitting I’m so splitting this place is fucked up I’m hitch hiking to California this summer I’m outta here.
I’m going to find my real mom I bet she’s like a professor at Berkley, like teaching anthropology or some shit and I bet she’s got like this apartment with like tribal masks and shit, whoa. Yeah, I’ll find her and I’ll live with her. She wouldn’t have this bullshit 9:00 curfew man. This shit is just oppression.
On adoption, by 20 year old me
As womyn continue to be considered the chattle of the dominant male force in this society we will have no real freedom or equality. Womyn are granted the illusion of voice while keeping in lines with the male oppressor. If a womyn is young and falls along the male ordained lines of beauty she will have a brief period where she is allowed to consider herself equal, yet in reality it is only her fuckability factor that alots her this. Once she reaches a certain age her power and visibility are cast aside. The only womyn who are allotted power at this point are ones who assume for themselves a male role and embrace male energy to the detriment of other womyn.
Adoption is the ultimate male act of oppression, often forced upon young or poor girls by womyn in a role of male energy oppressor. Womyn are forced to breed for the rich and the powerful. The pregnant womyn, if not legally owned by a male, is viewed as nothing more than an ambulatory and disposable uterus. When a womyn dares to break the ordained role and display her sexuality with a pregnancy outside the chains of marriage, this forces the pig patriarchal system to extract a swift and harsh judgment in (I’ll stop here, I think you get the point.)
On adoption, by 26 year old me in the 8th month of pregnancy
Where is she? Where is she? Oh god where is she? I’ll kill them… I’ll kill them…. I will hunt down whoever forced her to give me up and I swear I will kill them. How could they? How could they do that to her? Oh god I want my mommy.. how could she stand it? How could they? How could they do this to her? Oh god…..
On adoption, by 35 year old me
See mish-mash combination of prior two items above.
On adoption, by 43 year old me
If only I had one clue, one tiny little clue. The older I get, the more I realize how little I know. But I’m learning….