I’m starting to work through some tentative plans for the future. I don’t have anything firm. I’m just working things through at this point.
I’ve got some trigger dates that I’ve been playing around with. One is my birthday in October. Out of all the unknowns there are, the one thing I know, no matter if it’s good thoughts or bad thoughts, she’s thinking about me on my birthday. I’d actually venture to say every time her phone rings on October 12th she’s going to be thinking it’s me.
But then I think it might be too vulnerable of a day for her. So I scratch that off the list.
Another time is around Christmas. I think sometimes of sending her a card with a letter inside. She’s got such a huge extended family maybe she gets lots of Christmas cards, and mine wouldn’t be too conspicuous. But then I wonder if she’s like me. Oh my god you’re going to hate me when you read this, but I hate Christmas cards. I never send them. I think they are a monumental waste of time. Lots of times when I get cards, I don’t even open them. I know that’s horrific but I’m laughing as I’m writing this.
I just can’t think of a more meaningless activity on the face of the earth than sending out Christmas cards. So, what if she’s like me? What if she thinks Christmas cards are for the birds and just ignores them? What if she's is an asshole like me and just tosses them? Wow, that would suuuuuuck.
So right now I’m looking at August. I’ve got a week off then. I’ll have free time during the day.